To Have and to Hold

[Inspired by Audrey Niffenegger's "The Time Traveler’s Wife"]

Is it really better? Is it worth the fight
If we end up together, and I’m still lonely through the night?
I guess it’s only fitting with these bread crumbs ’long the trail
The end circles the beginning in this twisted fairy tale

And when I’ve waded through the part that says that
We were meant to be, I start to
Wonder why I thought it would be easy

It’s too late now for me to go and change my plans,
But I can count the things I want upon my own two hands

To have and to hold, from this day forward,
For better or for worse, richer or poorer,
In sickness and in health, and in simply growing older
Take me now, keep me here till time do us part

I have heard it’s better to have loved and lost
Keep your memories forever, lose you heart to cover costs
’Cause everyone’s got old flames, and the one that got away,
But my one never left me, still my one couldn’t stay

And so I try to write my story while I’m stuck in my own purgatory
Wondering if Tennyson was right

The grass is always greener on the other side of love
Makes no difference who or where or when
So it goes, and I suppose each one bears this cross alone
Maybe I’ll get lucky in the end

It’s too late now for me to go and change my plans,
But I can feel it start to slip away like footprints in the sand,
Still I can count the things I want upon my own two hands