I Cry Every Day Now

I cry every day now
Like I did over you
It doesn’t feel familiar
But I’m weary of it, too
I wish it were that temporary
This grief I’m walking through
I wish I had his problems
The kid you thought you knew

I try to call more often
I try to laugh along
I try to give you something
To ease the hurt that I am gone
I’ve tried to teach myself to trust you
Might take another try or two
But I’ll still wish I had his problems
The son you thought you knew

I was taught to be forgiving
And to turn the other cheek
The world is mine, ripe for the takin’
If I’m gentle and I’m meek
Now I’ve learned the meek get nothing
Unless we take it from the few
And they’ll wish they had his problems
The man they thought they knew

I cry every day now
And if the tears don’t ever cease
It’s not because I’m joyless
It’s just my heart’s grown tired and weak
I guess it won’t be temporary
Until I’ve closed my eyes to sleep
I’ll wish I had his problems
The man I used to be

I’ll still wish I had his problems
The soul I used to be