Conversations In My Head

Are you watching me from afar
Standing over my shoulder
Are you floating above the floor
Sorry that I can't speak Italian anymore

Many years ago your daughter had a Black boyfriend
When she got pregnant it caused a stir
Everyone said just get rid of it
You were the only one who told her to give birth

So what do you think of this life that you saved
What do you think about my prancing on the stage
If you were here, would you say that you were proud
Are you here, or am I talking to myself out loud

Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking you've never left me behind
Watching and listening to me all this time
Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking you're hovering over my bed
Hearing the conversations in my head

Are you still wearing your hair in a bun
Are you the one who talks and plays with my son
Are you that wise voice inside my mind
Sorry that I don't listen sometimes

New country, culture, loneliness and poverty
Strong you survived the tragic deaths of two of your babies
You never went back to visit family or friends
You missed them so much you could never leave them again

So what do you think of my recent self-pity mental state
What do you think of me as a mother, how would I rate
If you were here, what would you say about the money I spend
Are you here, or am I talking to myself again

Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking you've come into my dreams
Ending the falling, the chasing and the screams
Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking you're hovering over my bed
Hearing the conversations in my head

I have a picture of you and me at that last birthday party
The Raggedy Ann doll was your present and it made me so happy
I remember that we used to sleep side by side
I remember waking to panic on the night you died

Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking that night was not the end
And someday we'll surely meet again
Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking you're hovering over my bed
Hearing the conversations in my head

Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking you're standing by my side
Being my angel and my spirit guide
Crazy, am I crazy
Thinking you're hovering over my bed
Hearing the conversations in my head
Crazy