Pictures They Took

how come all the pictures they took of us
were happy?
how come all the pictures they took of us
were gay?
I'm not photogenic
usually my face gets in the way

how come all the colors
were blue sky and sea green
I'm not photogenic
usually my face is never clean

it was a blessed affair
and I guess that it's over
though you're hovering there
that flicker went dark
and I dont mean to stare
but I'm suddenly so alone
and no, I don't mean to sweat it
but I'm coming apart

you were the one who let me down
you were the one who crushed my crown
you were the one who let me fall
you were the kingdom after all

I am the one who loves you still
I am the buzz you cannot kill
I am the mansion in your mind
I am the key you cannot find