Not Dead Yet

3. Not Dead Yet (5:19)

Today, I walked the hill
Where we said our vows
That summer day so long ago
Autumn leaves were falling
Just to die on the ground
I was talking to your ghost
You couldn't stop, you couldn't stop
It killed us both, but I’m still here
Somewhere along the way
I never broke, but acquiesced to fear

Lights go out around me, but I’m not dead yet
My mom’s an old woman, livin’ close to regret
The fox is in the hen house, there’s panic in the air
And I still see your face everywhere

And yes, I raised her all alone
They say you did the best you could
But that you just couldn’t love yourself
Like we loved you
So the empty promise echoes on
Just like I knew it would
I always thought that I’d forgiven you
Every time I tried to love, I paid for your mistake
I cursed the ground whereon you walked
I barely made it to your wake

Lights go out around me, but I’m not dead yet
My mom’s an old woman, livin’ close to regret
The fox is in the hen house, there’s panic in the air
And I still see your face everywhere

The march of time will take a toll
One way or the next
I thought I cut you free but you’re still hangin round
Whispering there’s nothing in this wide world
You can trust
You lie to me from six feet underground
Now across the bed the smell of whisky
Hangs upon his breath
He tells me that he loves me
Then jokes about his death
Any time we ever love, there’s a price to pay
But if this ship is going down
I won’t be going to the wake