Rachael Kilgour - The Smell of Autumn Leaves
The Smell of Autumn Leaves
The changing of the seasons From summer into fall
And three years ago
I flew back home after that call The birch leaves fade yellow Maple turns to red
And it was just the other day
That I remembered you were dead
It was just the other day And the day before that too
Not one hour has passed that I don’t think of losing you
Now who will be my fortress If you’re lost to the world?
I don’t need to talk about it
I just want someplace to curl Up small and be protected Like the child that I once was
Like how you’d hold me just because
I had moved to Boston A master of my fate
And by the time I realized what I had done it was too late And I wonder if you knew
How soon death would come for you? Did you miss me?
Did you wish that I’d stayed back to help you through?
And will you be my fortress At the end of the world?
I don’t need to talk about it
I just want someplace to curl Up small and be forgiven
For the things I could not give Squeeze me tight like I’m a kid And let me try it all again
My head upon your chest then Your golden girl returned
I memorized your every breath
And cursed the lesson I had learned And you were strong as ever
Right until the end
Your arms strung tight like Popeye And your will could not be bent
But I couldn’t stay for long
And day by day you still held on So I kissed you on the forehead And had to leave you just at dawn
And as the plane touched down 1,500 miles away You took your final breath
And they called me just to say
Will you be my fortress At the end of the world?
I don’t need to talk about it
I just want someplace to curl Up small and be reminded
Of what goodbye really means Like the smell of autumn leaves Coming back to me