Forever Damned

I lost my heart
When I was 24 years old
I found a man, believed his promises
Bought everything he sold
But there were no guarantees
No cash back refund at the door
It was all there in the fine print
Of the pages I ignored
And I say

Jesus forgive me I have sinned
I dont know where I should begin
I made an idol of this man
And now my loves forever damned
Am I forever damned?

And its a weakness
To enjoy so much of you
Its an unrelenting pleasure
That I know I shouldnt choose
But I cannot breathe without you
I can taste you in the air
And your arms tighten around me
When I know you can't be there
And I say.

Jesus forgive me I have sinned
I dont know where I should begin
I am not following your plan
And now my loves forever damned
Am I forever damned?

StillId choose the apple
Over every other taste
And I would savor that sweet freedom
Letting Eden go to waste
I would still the wings of angels
Just to watch them fall in flight
I would look back while the buildings burned
Although it meant my life
And I say

Jesus forgive me I have sinned
I dont know where I should begin
Ive forsaken everything I am
And now my loves forever damned
Forever damned
Am I forever damned?