everything that blooms wrecks me

I watched you walk into the fire that night
you said you were gonna save a baby’s life
but then five minutes later I saw you walk out the other side
& I was the one burning up inside
his halo in my chest it doesn’t feel right
because half the time it’s just spinning circles around my heart

Did I do it for you or did I do it for me?
Did I live my life just as patiently as a bird that flies?

I was the one who couldn’t sleep at night
dreams of you falling kept me up alright
at the end of time will you be able to say you said it all?
so give me your wisdom, give me your love
give me precision when you’re talking of the times ahead
where it might grow darker than we thought

‘Cause you are the one, the starry one
Only you can open up the wood and quiet me down

& all you receivers should assume no weight for why
I don’t know why everything that blooms (just) wrecks me