Train

TRAIN
by Alana Asha Amram
2013 SESAC

on the train I hold myself still
sunlight pours through the glass
rocking like an old roller coaster
your eyes find mine at last

on and off the train leaves again
on and off the tracks stay the same

you met him on a saturday
bought your last bag

burnt matches and bottle caps
wednesday found you alone

rolling underground brakes screech and grind
with one kiss I dreamed you were alive

23 years of winter's cold
perfects a street hustle
got locked up for 45 days
kicking shaking every muscle

I prayed I'd find your killer
I swore I'd shoot him down

Vengence to save another
can't remove the shadows from this town


He was not to blame
I get down on my knees

Your life in your own hands
Over Roses and Lillies

Felt it coming a year to the day
The details of your face i can't remember
as I sleep you come to me as
honey colored lights in late september

on and off the train leaves again
on and off the tracks stay the same



Boarded the train across from me
Invisible I tried to be
He grabbed me arm like a life raft

get down on my knees
on roses and lillys
over years of winter's cold
stepped away but haven't gone too far
honey colored lights come to me tonight


fearless killers we are


i've made amends after months I said I wouldn't
45 days in rakers changed the man
eyes that hustle and a demon's stare
overcome by something more