Ruined

Well I ruined things last night for the last time
I know it cause I’m out here in the cold
If I hadn’t said the words that I was thinkin'
Your arms would hold me tight and not show me to the door

We’ve been through this a thousand times, all is going well
Then my words form something hurtful, makes your love for me dispel
Why do I always do this? Why can’t I get it right?
I guess there’s just a small part of me always lookin’ for a fight

What if I say I’m sorry? How can I change your mind?
A promise I can give you, it won’t happen next time
But we know a little better, given my history
There’s only one thing I can give you and that’s willful misery