Wasn't There
Verse 1

You wasn’t there when I first cut ma hair,
Felt like hell sittin’ in that barber chair,
Jordans first came out I wanted a pair,
To wear but Mom didn’t have the funds to spare,
Used to call her boyfrens Daddy then,
Still didn’t know wat havin a daddy meant,
So advice with girls I used to scratch my head,
Only did what ma friend’s and the rapper’s said,
An Christmas time Daddy was ma Santa Clause,
Wishing on a star waiting to see Daddy home,
Mom was GI Jane she stuck it through,
We soldiers, stronger because of u.

Chorus

You wasn’t there and it wasn’t fair,
I’m guessin’ you was someplace but it wasn’t here,
Now I couldn’t care less,
If u should appear and step a foot in here,
Cuz when I would’ a cared u wasn’t there.
I needed you…. You wasn’t there,
Wanted to be with you but u wasn’t there,
Wanted to be seen with you but u wasn’t there,
Now I couldn’t care less if u should appear.

Verse 2

You wasn’t there and I used to wonder where,
I wonder more when the landlord run up in here,
I seen your pics all the gold u used to wear, I’m thinking;
“If you were here we could move from here and get some newer gear”
Mom went abroad for a year,
Left me with lady next door for a year,
I’m ten on the corners, seein things that you wouldn’t want me to see,
And wouldn’t want me to hear.
Oh, I forgot, you don’t care,
They laughing, calling me a ****,
Saying that my dad done took off like a leer,
Heart got dark till its jet-black in there.
And mom shout ma name at ma football game,
I wanted to hear you cheer but u wasn’t there,
Ma girl came to ma basketball game,
I looked over to the chairs but you wasn’t there

Chorus

You wasn’t there and it wasn’t fair,
I’m guessin’ you was someplace but it wasn’t here,
Now I couldn’t care less,
If u should appear and step a foot in here,
Cuz when I would’ a cared u wasn’t there.
I needed you…. You wasn’t there,
Wanted to be with you but u wasn’t there,
Wanted to be seen with you but u wasn’t there,
Now I couldn’t care less if u should appear.

Verse 3

Was always home alone mom had to work,
Head to the sky, feelings in the dirt,
Cuz I’m an only child, so I got time and silence,
To think about ma purpose on this earth like,
Maybe ol’ head fell dead over in Nicaragua,
And couldn’t contact us,
But, what I think about is, that would mean he told no one about us,
You got kids king, they’re ma siblings,
I wanna know them, so I can miss them,
I’m half Spanish crazy aint it,
Did Spanish in high school, nearly failed it.
But I’m so far grown, from telling lies that we talk on the phone,
Still I wanna know more about you,
But every question break ma mom’s heart in two.